With all due respect, you were an idiot. Stop letting people use you for your body. Work on your self-control, do things that strengthen your character. There's no way to unfuck your cousin to regain your virginity. If you continue like this, people will treat you like a used rag and you will never be happy.
How do you think your future boyfriend will feel when he meets your family and finds out about your cousin who took your virginity?
With all due respect, you were an idiot. Stop letting people use you for your body. Work on your self-control, do things that strengthen your character. There's no way to unfuck your cousin to regain your virginity. If you continue like this, people will treat you like a used rag and you will never be happy.
How do you think your future boyfriend will feel when he meets your family and finds out about your cousin who took your virginity?