things may seem shitty right now, but you gotta , bad times never last. heck, even good times never last, but thats the beauty of life itself. you gotta push along, man. porn may bring you momentary happiness, but thats all it is. momentary. distractions may seem like the only things that give you happiness, but i promise it gets better. you are an amazing, special and unique human being who deserves love and from everyone you meet. i recently dealt with my dad ing away, and ill it, i dont feel as happy as i used to, but im way less sad.  things may seem bad right now, but they'll get better. i wish you the best of luck bro.